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Is there a purpose for your life?

12 October 2012 No Comment

Have you ever asked yourself important life questions, such as: “Why am I here?”, “Is there a reason for me to live?”, “Does my life have any kind of purpose?” I’m sure you must have at some stage of your life, because most people do! Perhaps you were too young at that time to embark in a discovery journey, or maybe you were simply told to “not worry about it, because there’s no answer”, and to “enjoy life while you have it”, so you decided to ignore those questions and you buried them somewhere there in the past! However, you might still feel that aching void in your heart, wondering if there’s anything more to life than just letting time pass you by from the cradle to the grave.

Whatever the case, I’m sure you must have at some point questioned the meaning of life, and I wonder if you ever found the answer! I know that I asked myself these questions ever since I was a child and, in fact, that was the main reason that I decided to leave my family, school and home town, at the young age of 18, when I realized that neither relatives nor teachers nor friends had any kind of answer that made sense to me. I determined in my heart that I had to find a reason to live, so I started out on a journey, hitchhiking around the country and studying the people that I met on the road, engaging in intense conversations with them, but almost always left without a satisfying answer!

Some people told me to seize the day and enjoy the moment (“carpe diem”, as some ancient philosopher had suggested), offering sex, drugs and rock and roll as a way to escape and to get away from thinking too seriously about life. Others offered psychedelic drugs as a means to “experience awareness” and discover a parallel world where I wouldn’t be bothered by such questions. Others would suggest that I read certain philosophical books, or engage in mystical oriental practices of transcendental meditation to “ascend” and rise above the painful reality of this world …

I remember asking a guy that I looked up to, being the leader of a bunch of hippies that lived communally together, if he thought that there was any life after death… His answer was: “Nope! When you die, you just see your whole life again like a movie, with flashes of the most meaningful moments, and then … nothing”! I was honestly and truly disturbed by that answer, frightened by the thought of “nothingness”, that our life would just be switched off after we die, and that our sufferings and struggles here on earth had no purpose. It just made no sense, so again I determined that I should find the truth!

It took me about a year and a half of painful search and heartbreaking experiences on the road to finally reach the place where I sat on a bench, more than a 1000 miles far from my parents’ home, with my heart still aching and wondering if there was any purpose in living, or whether I should just put an end to the struggle! By that time I had read all kinds of philosophical books and had talked to lots of smart people that should have known the answer, from university teachers to seemingly enlightened gurus, I had tried various types of hallucinogens and experienced all kinds of mystical meditation techniques, yet I was still left without an answer that would make sense to me! I could still see no purpose for living and even wondered if death might be a better option and bring some kind of relief!

I remember sitting there and being gripped by a turmoil of negative and self-destructive thoughts and emotions, until I finally broke down in a stream of tears and cried out to the heavens: “Is anyone out there?”, “Can anyone hear me?”…

A little sparrow caught my attention, while happily picking food off the grass beside my feet, and a foreign thought suddenly passed through my mind: “It seems like that little bird there knows there’s Someone up there Who truly cares and provides!” So I lifted my eyes and challenged “Whoever” might be up there to give me a sign of His care for me and show me the reason I was here, and what I was to do with my life!”

Little did I know then that the Almighty “God, Who created the world and all that is therein” (Acts 17:24), is also “near to them that are of a broken heart; and saves such as be of a contrite spirit” (Psalm 34:18), if we give Him a chance to get involved with our life and help us fulfill our destiny! I was totally ignorant of the Bible at the time, and what it had to say about human life, thinking that it was just a “religious book” written by some lunatics of old and that it had no direction or guidance for our life today! A blessed ignorance, you might say, as it forced me to seek for the truth on a quest for life meaning!

That challenge to the heavens was about to be picked by the God of love Who had always cared for me, even when I didn’t know Him or recognized His hand in my life! I was soon to discover the powerful impact that God’s Word would have on my destiny from that day on!

“Thus said the high and almighty One that inhabits eternity: I dwell in the high and holy place, but with him also that is of a contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble, and to revive the heart of the contrite ones” (Is 57:15).

My story does not end here! This is just the beginning of the “biography” that I’m posting chapter by chapter, but it’s not about me! It’s about the wonders God did in my life, taking me from painful to joyful living! I believe you will find clues to help you fulfill your destiny, so don’t miss the next chapters soon to be published at: https://renatoamato.com/en/welcome/biography/

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